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I actually find it depressing...

going to clubs/RSL establishments.

Ok, sure I won $4 on my $1 game of KENO, but these are not my sort of places. It really depressed me. The old folks there seemed to be enjoying themselves which is good, but I don't want this as I get old. In fact, it started me thinking about getting old. What sort of old man am I going to be? Who will I have in my life? I won't have family. Will I be satisfied with becoming less mobile? So many thoughts rolling around my head.

I came to the conclusion that I don't want to get old. Duh! No-body does. But I guess not having siblings to be responsible for means I can be in control of my own destiny a little bit more than some. I decided I'd be happy to just go and disappear one year in the future while walking a mountain. This thought was kind of satisfying. But when will I know the time is right? I'm guessing, that with the exception of an accident while trekking, this decision doesn't need to be made for a while.

1 comment:

Peter said...

By the time you really are getting old there will be homes for Family members with a passion for motors and diving [not at the same time!]

Maybe Judo will join you...