20071112

24 hours in hell...

The frustration was starting to show. I rolled over and removed the sock from in front of the alarm clock. 2:15am. The blood red of the numbers on the clock just seemed to compliment my mood. My migraine had reached a point where death actually seemed like a good option. I rolled back the other way and put my feet on the floor and sat up thinking about what to do. The short walk to the bathroom seemed like it was a trip across the Nullabore. I turn on the cold tap and splash handfuls of cold water on my face. I bent down and even tried to fit my whole head under the tap. I have two more headache pills... I feel ill.

Back in bed. 3:10am. I just want out. The pain throbbing in my head is enough to make me throw up. Back to the bathroom and I'm sitting on the floor with my head resting close to the toilet bowl. I'm also in front of the bathroom sink cabinet. I know there's stronger pills in here somewhere. But, I know turning on the light will make my head explode. Hmmmmm... head exploding actually seems like it might be the way to end this. As I flick the switch I feel like the world around me let out a deadly blood curdling shrill. Vampires around the world would have heard it and understood. I can imagine them all pausing for a second knowing that one of theirs brothers had fallen.

Codeine. It's horrible stuff. It gives me the shits then knocks me out. Two pills should do it. And it did.

This morning the headache remains. I don't often get these killer migraines, but when I do they hit me hard. Sometimes I've had one side of my body go numb from the face down to my fingertips and occasionally I've been unable to think and have not even recognised my own name, address or people in photos. I've even blacked-out from the pain. They are not pleasant and right now the shadow of pain left there in my head this morning is going to keep me on edge and rather short tempered today.

8 comments:

mykel said...

hope you feel better today! also, was good to meet you yesterday. take care of yourself.

Monty said...

Heck Muz...hope our beer consumption didn't contribute to the migraine! Hope you are staying home today as well...get better soon hey! Hugs!

Muzbot said...

Monty: I know... I was hoping that a few/many beers at home would have helped deaden the pain, but alas, I had none and went straight for water and the lounge. I know, I'm getting soft.
Mykel: You know I walked away after that chance meeting thinking "How do I know that guy?!?" And then when I was further up the street it dawned on me it was you. Apologies for being soooooooo vague.

Anonymous said...

Migraine sufferer myself, less severe but quite often, right side of my head above my eye, wipe me out for afew hours. Light, noise and various smells drive me nuts. Im a male in my late 30's but they occasionally make me cry, yeah big boys cry. I feel for you, and if you went to work, youre very brave.
Hope it's all sunshine and lollipops tonight.
Love the blog.
Long time reader, second time writer.....

mykel said...

kinda figured you didn't know who i was,not so surprising though given it was out of contex. hope you are feeling better ;)

Kim said...

Dude, must have been on the wind as I was knocked low with a migraine around the same time. Hideous stuff.

Canberrabiker said...

Migraine sufferer here too - you have my sympathy - and understanding. Hope you're feeling OK now, although likely you're still feeling all "washed out".

My migraines hit me at night, so I don't get the usual warning signs. have to drag myself to the bathroom for the migraine tablets - mersyndol are pretty good - have a stomach calmative too, to stop the vomiting.

Nice topic for the blog BTW !

seymour said...

Ouch mister. Can I suggest acupuncture ?
Super effective for migraines and headaches. It does no harm.. unlike pills, and acupuncture has virtually no side effects. ok, some on your wallet, but it really works.
Shiatsu massage is great too.
big hugs x