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About the past...

I've hit a little patch of oil on the road of life. It’s made me slip into a little bit of a dark hole of melancholy and I’m not really seeing the light. This is due to certain events going on in my life and a timely post I read recently from a blogger and incredibly poor timing on my behalf.

Walking home from work the iPod literally stopped me in my tracks with this line from a song: “Next time I promise we’ll be perfect.” And that’s the crux of it. I’m looking for the perfect relationship – for me. For Muzbot. Now, surely that's not wrong. Oh, I know the "perfect" relationship for me may not exist, but I know people who seem "perfect for each other" and are so very happy together. They seem to feed off each other and challenge each other in a way that only someone who understands and "gets" you completely can. And so, I sit here in my nest in front of my computer and think... Could what I'm looking for really exist? And should I feel bad for wanting such a beast? Huh?

11 comments:

seymour said...

Sweet Muz,
You actually know what you want, sadly many individuals never get that far. Project what your heart desires out into the universe, and it will come to you.
Being ready to love - there is a very lucky soul on this planet that will receive this gift from you.

Monty said...

Muz, I wholeheartedly agree with Seymour! ! ! You are an AWESOME guy and the fact that you're willing to give it a try, to put yourself out there - well, it's gotta happen! In the meantime, a hug from me, a beer or 6, and a few laughs is always good "medicine". :-)

Anonymous said...

Knowing what you want, and setting an ideal puts you way ahead of the pack, as seymour said.

Knowing the greatness around you, rather than always looking into the distant sunset...now thats a challenge..

Campbell said...

You asked the question, so I'm going to start with a shouldn't. NO, you shouldn't feel bad for wanting such a beast. You deserve him.

Christerbjorn said...

G'day Muzbot,
You may have to think a little laterally to work out who I am, but from reading your blog and the 4 previous responses, it's obvious that you are a pretty awesome guy. You have a passion (Motorcycles) among other things I haven't worked out yet. A person with a passion is a person with purpose. I see many people floundering through life and never feel as though they achieve any goals or manage to "Suck the marrow from life". The fact that you are a little melanchole isn't a bad thing, it's just an acknolegement that you have the propensity to feel and this is yet another attractive feature that you have. You are a great catch and you will find the right person who truely rocks your world. Don't become impatient, just relax and remember, good things happen to good people. P.S I agree with all of the other comments whole heartedly.

Jules | Australia said...

I am glad I am not the only one feeling like this in the world. Lately, I've been down and thinking about the same things you've written. It's been a hard year but I've learnt what I'm made of and I know I am stronger for all that's happened. I still love listening to the blues, but I know in my heart, the sun will rise, Life will go on, and you'll never know who you'll meet tomorrow. So hang in there....

Anonymous said...

Seymour says it so well.

Remember the perfect relationship you see is only the face that relationship show to the world.
Nobody is perfect.

After the fall, the first place you look is UP. Remember that ;)

Anonymous said...

Muz,

Out there is someone who's feeling exactly the same as you are right now... waiting to meet you.

Don't fret as one day you'll find each other.

Marty

Sh@ney said...

It is nice to know someone else shares similar desires...I dont often come across a guy who wants to find that 'one' person...I truly hope it happens for you handsome!

Anonymous said...

Hmmm.

Imagine how frustrating it must be for the guy standing right in front of you .. while you look over his shoulder looking for that perfect man.

Fortunately he understands, and supports. What are friends for.

Don't stay melancholy for too long. You have more to offer the World than that.

Englishman in London said...

You are not alone in seeking your perfect man / relationship. I too sometimes wonder if what I yearn for is unattainable because of just that - the idealising - the more I idealise the more perfect the ideal becomes, and so more unattainable.

The answer is, I think, to follow your heart - don't let it be clogged by your ideals - even perfection must have its flaws, and you will love the flaws too!

Love the HP look too!